This world was never worthy , but how can I call it unfaithful? Every promise was fulfilled as decay crawled from its throat, like the dead rising from an open grave. Lips of splendor and tongue of deceit, all dying now as our fragile wrists hold only waste. Like those gasping for their last breath, we cannot hide, there's nothing left.
The days blow by in agile moments of clarity and blind despair. With rage so thick it's bittersweet to see a smile come through here and there. You put your faith in living, but youthful idealism is no longer welcome here. I'm not dead yet. Hopes not dead yet. A hero's march down scorn filled halls defeats the charity of last years hell. Your vain eyes show no respect, just loss of recognition broken spirit burnt out will. Sing a song of cynicism a foul smell of shit decay and degradation in the midst of celebration. I'm not dead yet. Hopes not dead yet.
She came from Greece she had a thirst for knowledge. She studied sculpture at Saint Martin's College, that's where I caught her eye. She told me that her Dad was loaded, I said in that case I'll have a rum and coke-cola. She said fine and in thirty seconds time she said, I want to live like common people, I want to do whatever common people do, I want to sleep with common people I want to sleep with common people like you. Well what else could I do - I said I'll see what I can do. I took her to a supermarket. I don't know why but I had to start it somewhere, so it started there. I said pretend you've got no money, she just laughed and said oh you're so funny. I said yeah? Well I can't see anyone else smiling in here. Are you sure you want to live like common people, you want to see whatever common people see? You want to sleep with common people, you want to sleep with common people like me? But she didn't understand, she just smiled and held my hand. Rent a flat above a shop, cut your hair and get a job. Smoke some fags and play some pool, pretend you never went to school. But still you'll never get it right 'cos when you're laid in bed at night watching roaches climb the wall. If you call your Dad he could stop it all. You'll never live like common people, you'll never do what common people do. You'll never fail like common people, you'll never watch your life slide out of view, and dance and drink and screw because there's nothing else to do. Sing along with the common people, sing along and it might just get you thru' Laugh along with the common people, laugh along even though they're laughing at you and the stupid things that you do because you think that poor is cool.
These floods of you are unforgiving, pushing passed me spilling through the banks. I fall faster than light and faster than time. That's how memory works, at least in the dark where I'm searching for meaning, when I'm just searching for something. I want out, out of every awkward day, out of every tongue tied loss. I want out, out of the burdening nightsweats, out of the rising seas of blood. Lost in you like saturday nights. searching the streets with bedroom eyes, just dying to be saved.
I WOULD DIE FOR YOU, IF YOU CARE FOR ME TOMORROW THERE`S ANOTHER CRIMSON DAWN I'LL WATCH IT ALONE, UPON THE LOST THRONE I WOULD BLEED FOR YOU, IF YOU STAY WITH ME TOMORROW THERE`S ANOTHER ENDLESS NIGHT I'LL WALK IT ALONE, ALONG THE LOST ROAD CROWNED IN DESPAIR
It was never your fault, mind ghosts clouded my view. It was nothing you did, just couldn't help my insecurity from shining through.